Something a little different!
I decided I’m gonna try and use my tumblr a bit more by starting something I’d like to call “Meaningful Music Mondays.” It’s where every Monday I can, I upload a song and write a little about why the song means something to me. I listen to A LOT of different kinds of music so it’ll be interesting to see what kind of things I rediscover. Hopefully it’ll spark some interest! :D
“Meaningful Music Mondays” begins on January 30th!
My chemical dependencies
I guess theyve gotten the best of me…. I think this might have to be my last night at my parents because of how badly, ive realized, i need pills to sleep, to wake, or to just function…. Hopefully tomorrow ill be okay and i wont hurt myself. Forgetting stretching, ill just try to go on. On a side note its times like this i wonder, “when and why did we stop talking?” anyway, i feel like a zombie and dont know what to do…. Will the living dead escort me to the nearest exit please?
I know dont post on here a lot and its usually when i only have something to complain about. It sucks that i can never seem to catch a break for myself. Over the past two days ive blurred the lines between whats wrong and whats right. I cant seem to find any solid ground in an argument and i ask myself what has caused me to become this person who cant even make a some kind of real decision. For once, in a seriously long time, i find my heart and my head conflicting. It used to be a good feeling but now i can barely eat nor can i sleep(its not like i used to). I wish someone would come a along and clarify all these mixed emotions and solidify some sort of decision or treatment for me. For now the only sort of substance that can remedy this intolerable confusion is the sweet sound of music. Ill drown out my thoughts with it all. It doesnt help ill be home or alone the next few days. But ill continue to do what i can to keep my hopes up.
I wanna go back to the generation where “going out” was going on a date, not immediatly begin bf/gf. I wanna go back to the generation when a guy had to get permission from the girl’s parents to ask her out. I wanna go back to the generation where a guy would physically call her and talk to her, not text. I wanna go back to the generation where your first kiss would be with someone you’ve been dating for months, not hookup with a guy you meet in a club. I wanna go back to the generation where a guy would give you his varsity jacket. I wanna go back to the generation where a girl can get any guy just by wearing a t-shirt, jeans, and a pair of sneakers. I wanna go back to the generation where couples slow danced, not grind. I wanna go back to the generation where love actually made sense……
Via Our remedies oft in ourselves do lie.About me
I decided I'm gonna try and use my tumblr a bit more by starting something I'd like to call "Meaningful Music Mondays." It's where every Monday I can, I upload a song and write a little about why the song means something to me. I listen to A LOT of different kinds of music so it'll be interesting to see what kind of things i rediscover. Hopefully it'll spark some interest! :D
